malheureux

I am just stuck, wallowing about. I don't know how to get out. The only comforting things are my dark room when the only source of light coming from the string of lights I have around my big window, being at home with my mom and daddy, watching Where the Wild Things Are, and my mirrored aviator sunglasses.

Absolutely stuck!!! Need to find a way out immediately before I fail my classes. Its like I'm losing sight of my goal, but I'm not. I just am losing sight of how to get there. Fruitless, useless, saddening.


Photograph by lis

du soleil

Depending on the way that you look at it, I was lucky/unlucky enough to see the sunrise one night... Even on 1.5 hrs of sleep, I was still motivated enough to grab my camera and shoot from inside my room through my huge windows. I haven't seen so many different colors in the sky for as long as I can remember. The craziest pink/magenta/orange gradient!

I went on a 2 hr run this morning and I wish I had my camera with me. Forest park looked like autumn heaven with a million different colors of leaves all over the floor and a thousand bare tree branches in the sky. I could sit in the middle of the park and just breathe in that maple-oak smell while the crisp air tingles through my loose strands of hair.

Being and watching outside is my escape to the horrible or the stressful, or the ugly in my life.

This semester has been a blessing and a mess all at once.


Photographs by lis